Ego

Ego get out of here     

I’m done with you.

You hold me back,

Keeping me stuck in the past,

Dwelling on every mistake I’ve ever made.

Pursuing perfect imperfection,

A figment of my imagination.

Flawed is beautiful?

No. Better to change who you are

And avoid the scar.

But You’ve changed everything.

What I see in the mirror

Bad hair not a person,

Less then perfect complexion.

Self confidence, Eviction.

For ideas of this Ideal Identity

That's forever out of reach.

But I reached, and began to teach

Myself I wasn’t worth anything

Until I was loved by all.

By any means.

You’ve made me hurt others

By altering my behavior,

Suppressing me

To become who they want

Me to be.

I’ve sold out friends

For acquaintances,

My uniqueness

For carbon copies of cool.

Though my heart hurt from the fakeness

I continued to chase this.

This ideal identity,

This perfect me.

And for what?

For silence once the party dies?

Lonely until I’m needed

To bring laughter

To my fellow defeated?

Left empty with a pain in my stomach

That asks, was it worth it?

Was it worth it?

How dare you lead me to defeat

At the feet of the self worshiping lonely,

A phony who once was somebody.

Ego I’m done with you.

Pride filled eyes blocked my sight

Blinding my vision, darkness replaced light

Every disagreement a fight,

Because I had to be right.

Ego I’m done with you.

Look back at my wake

Broken hearts in the places I left them,

Juggled love in my hands

And failed to protect it,

Treated life as a game paid out in pain

Reduced people to names

In pursuit of this illusion of self proclaimed fame.

Ego I’m done with you

Self worth I run to you,

Self respect I’m in love with you,

Humbleness since we’ve met

My life’s song will be written

And sung to you.

My life made new

Headed for noble pursuits

Because ego, I’m done with you.